March Break

I've had an entire week off, and I just started that thing people call homework and I call... well I call it homework most of the time- until I hit calculus that is. Anyways that is not the point. The point is that all I have really done is read One Piece (Amazing Manga by the way), Twilight (Team Edward simply because Jacob doesn't sparkle what so ever) and Naruto and Bleach's new chapters. Awesomeness? Yes. Waste of time? Also yes.

However, my church decided that I should be teaching the sunday school kids a new song this week to perform on Saturday. Only we're teaching Friday. The song I chose is You Reign by Hillsong. The chorus goes, "You reign, you reign, over everything Lord, you reign, with power, and justice divine, over everything you reign" but the part that got to me really was one of the verses, where it goes, "What was Your last thought as You drew Your last breath". It makes me think: Jesus was human at that moment, he was in pain, He was suffering. Man if I were there, I would've told the world to screw it and saved my self. Because I'm essentially a selfish being, like all of us, but Jesus- He did it! I dunno how, but He did.

I want to know his thoughts. Because, for all grace and power He had- he was human! He got angry, sad, dissapointed. But He still did it.

Anyways, that's my thought for the week, and I don't have much else in mind except how I gotta explain this song to the kids. I'd hate for them to sing this song, but not understand it, because its truly touching. I sat there when I was listening to it on my iPod and I was in awe. Cause the person who wrote this realized the truth, that He was human. He wasn't just an almighty God who cold do everything. H e felt the pain when something stabbed him, when He was hungry, and tired and people were still crying for His death. How did He still love us even though we wanted Him dead? Love of this degree, I cannot begin to understand.

None But Jesus

I said I wanted to do Hosanna. Then I realized that my voice clearly can't hold it. Then I started listening to NOne But Jesus, a song I have always loved. It's so wonderfull, how it goes: all my delight is in you Lord. All of my hope, all of my strength. Of course it is! He gives me the strength to be better!



His grace is enough for me. This is a concept really hard to get to me. Sometimes I'll end up in situations where someone who I trusted just did something that I can't believe they did! Or they choose not to trust me... and it's not a good feeling. But then I remember that as long as God knows the truth, He won't let it come against me badly. No way will He let the righteous suffer right?

So It's Been A While

Don't worry, I have not gone and died on any of you. Not even close. But I must say, being misdiagnosed is a really interesting experience. Shitty, but interesting. Wednesday, I went to the hospital with stomach pain, at 5 am. Doc sees me at 10am, cool guy though. He thinks I have gallstones, and then I cough up blood, turns out I had stomach ulcers. This is wonderful. Anyways, I will rest now, and post stuff up later, I really want to sing Hosanna, cause I think it reflects me right now. But I'm gonna sleep, and then do stuff, and then yes okay. Sleep.