I've Migrated!!!!!

So I have been using blogger since I was 16 years old, thats 3 years and its been good to me. I've had a lot of fun with ya'll and I've learned my lessons. What to and what not to do online, for one:) I've learned so much on my blogger. No I wanna let you all know, this Tale is nowhere near done. It's barely started!

But change is good. Change is fun and refreshing and sometimes I need something like that to get me back to my roots. To really bring out the writer in me, I hope you all are following. It's that spring feeling of winter letting out its last breath and spring swallowing it up and growing, and growing- till all of a sudden it's summer!

So it is with great joy that I introduce my brand new blogbaby to you! It's my tumblr! It's called soniclipstick, a nod to my dear Doctor Who. www.soniclipstick.tumblr.com is my new new new baby!

I don't think I'll post on both blogs from now on, it'll get confusing and this post about me moving won't be on top anymore if I do, but please don't abandon me, I've just moved online is all:)

Thanks again for being with me, I've appreciated it! I hope I see ya'll on tumblr!

All my love,

Merin

Spring!

Location: Seebach, Zurich

Music: Spellbound - Katie Melua

Mood: bursting with I do not know what, energy, fire and water and rain and just everything

I'm a girl and maybe thats why I write so much about how I feel, or maybe its just who I am and I couldn't have helped it even if I was a boy but ahh!

Its Friday night after a hard week at work, appointments crammed in one between the other and I've finally got the chance to sit down, relax and enjoy some music, chill out and take a breath. I love this restaurant, not guilty. I adore it so much, because its spring. not guilty is spring just beginning, we're brand new and beautiful and precious and bright greens and pinks and yellows and blues and it is gorgeous. Glorious, really. It's got sooo much potential and its all waiting to happen! Summer is coming soon, I can feel it in my bones. Summer will come and all the pretty greens and pinks and yellows will bloom.

I really hope that I am making sense right now. I just want to write because I wish you all could feel that feeling in my stomach. I've got butterflies in my stomach because I know things are changing and thats spring too! That feeling you get when you wake up in bed early morning on a warm spring day and you've got so much to do and you can't wait to do them because it's not work or school, its just life and accomplishing things and enjoying that day in its full entirety. Just eating up the day like a massive black hole, eating up everything it can have, yet never being able to stop. There is sooo much out there and even if you can't get everything, who would dare stop you from trying to?

I wish you all could understand what it means to be that joyful, that free and ready for where life is reading to take you! That ship is ready and waiting and I've got my bags packed. I've got a ticket sitting in my drawer and it ain't no good till I use it, before it expires! Its spring. For me. For not guilty Restaurant. For everyone, if you're willing to take that chance and just go for it. Don't miss that pretty ship, when you've already got a paid ticket in your hand.

Lately I've been thinking, should I stay or should I go? It is definitely time to go!

Leave the past behind, start all over again, and live life to your fullest. So its still Winter for some of us. Well for me, I love the snow, the bright whites which cover everything and hides the world from view. But winter is saying her final adieu and spring is here, bringing the colours back into our world. It's time to wake up, say good bye to the past, let it wash away and let the sun through. Time to board that boat, and as Captain Jack would say, bring me that horizon.

Twitter

HELLO INTERNET. (I saw Charlie Mcdonnell say that once on YouTube and I ADORE IT!)

For those of you who haven't noticed, I adore twitter. I love blogging, writing and talking to people. I have noticed that people who are generally more introverted tend to be extroverted online, which is how you meet such interesting people, with whom you'd in real life probably not know as well. Some friends online know more about me than others do, simply because they're easier for me to connect to. Some people think its weird, I find it only natural.

So naturally, when Mr. Krstovic starting telling us about twitter in grade 12 chemistry, I had to have it. Over the first year, I tweeted less than 400 times, simply because I thought it troublesome to sign in and just waiting till things happened on the my timeline. Now almost two years later- I've finally begun using it properly, and on my iPhone. Its fast, and for on the move. I have so much more fun with it, when I am out and about and I believe that I finally get microblogging. Over that last 6 months, I have finally used twitter the way it should be used and I am falling in love with it more and more. The amount of information being exchanged in so few words all over the world.... its FANTILLIANT!

Heres a program called tweet cloud that shows you what I've been tweeting about as of late.

Naruto, Masashi Kishimoto's world of Child Soldiers

When I was in high school, I became aware of a horrifying event that was happening around the world, the issue of child soldiers. The idea of children fighting the pointless wars of men disgusted me.

The words wrist or elbow still haunt me sometimes. The idea that refusing would result in the loss of limbs for children a young as my siblings, 5, 7, 8 ... of course they agree to fight, they have no choice. And what about elder ones? Teens are forced to join for the sake of their family or their own lives. They know no other option.

Why do they want the children so bad? What use are they? You might ask, but think about it. Children are like sponges. They're impressionable, and thy take in knowledge much faster than adults. It's easy to teach a child to pick up a gun, or diffuse bombs and their size means they are good spies... And hey, if they die, they're not worth one bit to these cold hearted fighters.

So one may question, why no one is doing anything about it? Well they are. There are organizations that help rehabilitate children. But that is after the fact, the damage has been done. This problem can't be solved without attacking the roots themselves. The use of child soldiers in any and all conflicts is a severely punishable war crime, but they have to catch the culprits first, and that is the difficult task. Most child soldiers are used by rebel fighters against the government, who are technically not accountable to the United Nations. Yep, that is, according to a friend, the dumbest thing ever.

I never really forgot that learned this ages ago, but for some reason, as I was catching up on Naruto, it hit me that Masashi Kishimoto's famous anime Naruto is exactly that! The story of children learning to become weapons of war, ninjas to fight other ninjas, commit assassinations and even escort missions, from the moment that they learn to walk! Now to be honest, Naruto is a fictional world, but here's the thing! I LOVE Naruto! It's one of my favourite mangas I've ever read, because it has beautifully fleshed out characters, intricate (if a bit long winded) plots and brilliants morals. But in the end, at the centre of this entire thing is the truth that the story is about child soldiers!

What I will never forget is in the beginning, when Sakura, one of the major characters is engaged in a fight with her 'archnemesis aka exbestfriend" Ino during the ninja exams. Sakura was initially losing and git her hair caught in a trap of Ino's. She cuts her hair off, then brutally fights back and wins. In the dialogue, what stood out to me was her promise to herself to grow up, become a better ninja and never to be caught up in a trap like that. Yes, I loved it because I finally had respect for Sakura and because it spoke of growing up. Sakura was 12 years old. Growing up sounds ok (unless you're me:) but what 12 year old should be ready to kill on command? A child soldier. This was not just growing up, this was hardening up, and not at 18 or 25 or 30, when one has seen a lot of the world, but at the tender age of 12.

I'm all for growing up, everyone should mature and become responsible but that is not the same as hardening up and becoming someone who will obey any and all orders, willing to ignore all laws and rules. And how can they turn that off?? The Doctor from Doctor Who once said, what's the point of bring a grown up if you can't be a child once in a while? What about these children? They grew up too fast, fighting the ears of the elders, with no clue or care for what they were even fighting for! The idea of it just makes me nauseous.

Naruto and Sakura both chose to be ninja, they weren't part of ninja clans or anything, they chose it, unlike the poor children in our world. But somewhere, someone needs to draw a line! Ninja training started once thy learned to walk, so what choice is that anyway? A choice made by children thinking that's it's all about glory and power, and fun. And them they learn the truth and it's too late, you can't retire out of this, it becomes a lifetimes burden... One no child has or even should have the capacity of understanding and enduring.

Ok I'm done, I'm gonna go throw up now.

One of those Merin days…

Haven’t had one of these in a while. Since July I think, actually. So it really has been a while. My dad went to India today, and I don’t know if it has much to do with this, but I started off with a beautifully enlightening conversation with my dear Ankur, about which I will write about soon, but I won’t be able to until I get this out of my mind. For some reason, I had a rain cloud following me all bloody day.

I felt like it was Crows and Locusts in one day. Let me write basically how I felt,

See the murder, and the swarm descend. The night is getting thick, the moon turning her tricks she’ll betray you every time.

It was the year, the crows and the locusts came. The fields drained dry the rain, the fields are bleeding. It was the age, the foxes came for the fields. We were bleeding as we bowed to kneel and prayed for mercy, prayed for Mercy.

I know I’m pretty strange. Once I know someone well, then we’re close and I can’t hide much from them. But I am the MOST socially awkward person that I have ever known. And its always been easier to write than talk about just stuff for me.

I just… sorta really wish I had someone like Allison or Michelle here,who I am able to talk to. Or Ankur, Ankur you know me before I know me… I know you know what I mean. But I don’t and then it piles up and randomly comes out. I always wonder if it is the whole mother thing or just because I’m me… I don’t know. I don’t know a lot of things. And its REALLY weird because I don’t know how to tell people things, like I told people I was fine at work, because I didn’t know how to explain that I wasn’t ok, cause it’s not like I know how to fix it right?

I don’t even know why I’m having this day where I just feel like crap. Maybe I should get a shrink.  So yeah, just putting it out there and off my chest.

Now I can write about more important things. Because sometimes I am really selfish and my problems are nothing compared to the suffering that people go through every day around the world. I am just going to have to suck it up and live, not much else to do anyways, because I don’t quit, people who know me well, know that I don’t quit. I am not a quitter, and I no matter how difficult I have it, I’m not quitting on life.

Actually I feel much better now. I’m listening to Shadowfeet also by Brooke Fraser and there are a few lines I get now. I really get it!

When the world is falling out from under me, I’ll be found in you, still standing.

When my world is falling apart, I should talk to Jesus about it, I just… I don’t know to talk to people… I think I’m going to start writing letters to him then. I’ll do that. I like that idea. Alright, I have a solution I believe!

You make all things new, you makes all thing new.

He can make me new, a better person!

Every fear and accusation, under my feet, when time and space are through, I’ll be found in you!

I’m gonna be okay, I know it! I just feel so much better, after writing this! And listening to that song. I get it. I’m gonna be just fine.

Take this ocean of pain that is mine, throw me a lifeline. There’s ocean obstructing me and God and it’s breaking me, what else could? I gotta fix this! Be back soon!