Procrastination... and Motivation

I have 5 hrs before my calculus test and all I can think about is the fact that I have a 4 hour spare, all I've done is a study sheet (incomplete at that) and now I have tons of random derivative and limit stuff to look over. So I decided I was sick of hearing a bunch of friend sit and simply complaining about my math teacher who isn't really a bad teacher. I go to GodTube.com, which is called tangle.com now... a new twist.... anyway. I begin to play random songs- Saviour King, Mighty to Save, I Will Rise. It's not working. Then I hit jackpot. Hosanna.

It goes, "I see a near revival stirring as we pray and seek, we're on our knees, we're on our knees, Hosanna! Hosanna! Hosanna in the highest!" The word Hosanna means "save now".  I sing it in my head, Hosanna in the highest- a cry out to God so raw and powerful: save now, save now, save now, in the highest. I'm in tears and my friends ask me if I'm okay. It's beautiful. I want to just sing right now, Hosanna! Hosanna in the highest!!!! Hosanna in the highest!!

I think of the people in Jerusalem who cried out as Jesus entered on a donkey, Hosanna, Hosanna! a week before they crucified my Lord. Hosanna they cried, save us! Then they crucified their saviour. But their cry was not forgotten because today so many people cry out, some to God and some to anyone who will hear them save now!

The people sing, the people sing, Hosanna! Hosanna! Hosanna in the highest. I sing it, everyone sings it, and its such a raw emotion, of giving it to God and saying, I can't help myself anymore God, please help me- I don't have the strength to do this alone. It's so different from the arrogance and selfishness that humans hold so tight to that it shocks me.

Then it goes, Show me how to love like you have loved me. Break my heart for what breaks your, everything I am for your kingdom's cost. That's the thing that's different from us and the people in Jerusalem. When I cry Hosanna, I want that to happen to me, God takes everything, and then envelopes me in his infinite love. And then I know that he did just Hosanna.

So I just spent 15 minutes on this entry. Even though I haven't studied yet for Calculus and math is not really my strong point; it was not a waste of my time, because it just hit me. God can do the really big and the really small. Hosanna. If I need help from the God who created math, I just have to ask him to Hosanna. If I need him to help me become a doctor so that I may go to other countries and treat his children who are in desperate need, or stop cancer so that his loved children don't suffer-he can do it. He can Save now, because He is the highest.