Fanfiction

Hey People,

Like I said before, I wrote my first FF at FF.net, and the first chapter is out. Now don't go and read it if your not a Bleach fanatic, and haven't read the latest chapter... because spoilers ensue. Here it is: www.fanfiction.net/~ataleoncetold

If you scroll down, you'll notice something that says "Imbroglio" Enjoy!

In Memory Of…

For most of you, as a child, you expect your parents and your grandparents to live forever. You don’t question it, because you’ve known them since the day you were born, and you don’t know a life without them, because well that had never actually happened. For me, I know better than this beautifully painted ignorance. People die. My mom did, and that was just over 13 years ago. But just because I know better doesn’t mean I don’t have that naive belief anyways. Though I know it probably won’t happen, I expect my dad to be around to see my kids. And I expect my dear, dear grandparents, both Appachan and Ammachi in Katode and in Edamun; to live, for the lack of a better word, forever.

Well that’s one belief crushed.

18th of July, 2009; my maternal grandfather Mathew passed away.

I last saw him 3 years ago. And I remember that he would complain about us watching T.V. and say that it was the devil in a box. I remember when I was probably in grade 2 and I went to visit him, and there were all these Rubber Trees and he was making the sheets of rubber to sell them. And there is this huge photo of my mom there, and every time I go there, my grandmother bursts into tears and my grandfather says that we should’ve grown up in Edamun. And every time I go, Sam uncle says I look just like his big sister, my mom. No parent should live to see their children die. It just isn’t natural. That leaves us the pain of watching the parent, grow old and die, all this time; never forgetting the precious child that they lost.

I don’t remember my mom at all. As much as it pains me to say this, 5 years ago, when I looked at photos of my mom, I asked my dad, “Is this mummy?” and he said no. That was my aunt Lizzy. I couldn’t even recognize my own mother. Well, I can now, but the point is I don’t have a connection to her, and thus, I don’t have as much a connection to her parents as I do with my dad’s because I grew up with them. Stacey, if you’re reading this, I’ve talked to you about this- I have less connection to my maternal family because… well here’s why I end up keeping in touch with my paternal side. Moncy uncle always calls, and we always call him, because he’s so close- and we' always end up seeing each other. He’s the ‘funny uncle’ and everyone gets along with him. We were never close to Shiny Auntie, or at least I wasn’t and Rennie Papa is like another dad because I used to see them a lot in India, and Pheebe is one of my best friends. On the other hand, Jessie mummy and Lizzie mummy lived in England and I never saw them. I talked to Ronnie once, but after he passed away, I think our connection Jessie mummy was even less. I saw Jose uncle enough, and Johnny kutty uncle as well; but I think with Johnny kutty uncle, it’s a bigger connection to Stace and Stan, and our endless phone calls. I talk to Sam uncle like once and year and so yea, that was basically it. I mean, it’s probably awkward enough for them to call me since mummy wasn’t alive and Daddy wasn’t usually in Canada, but I never had the initiative to call either; which was a big mistake on my part.

Wow I ramble a lot, the point I’m trying to make with all this is that I’m going through a guilty phase at the moment. My grandpa lost my mom, and then all he had of her was me and Josh. Josh is just a little kid, but I should’ve kept in touch and told him, ‘hey, I know you exist, I care'. I do care, I remember him, don’t get me wrong! I know him and I remember him well; but I don’t remember him the way I remember my grandparents from my dad’s side. I remember little snippets, not the last time we went shopping together and whatnot. It’s just, now that I think- what if he spend his last two years (in bed rest), not having anything to do, and thought of his life, and my mom, and her kids. Did he wonder if we were okay? Why weren’t we calling him? Why weren’t we there? Didn’t we love him? I was too young to remember what they were like when mummy passed, but I saw, and still see the amount of pain and suffering that Jessie mummy goes through because of loosing Ronnie, and Ronnie was 15. And grandfather went through this for 13 years. And he had a connection, which was us- but we were too lazy and stupid to care and remember that our grandfather, the oldest of all of them, even older than my great grandma, was sick, and he loved us, and worried, and had suffered greatly. If there was anything I could do, I would. But I can’t. Because its too late and he’s gone now.

What I’ve really learned from all this is that I still have 3 grandparents left- and I shouldn’t really be taking them or granted, because you never know. Everybody has this invisible timer on top of them, and its inevitably going to reach 0, so I’m not going to think I have all the time in the world to keep in touch, because I clearly don’t.

Life and Death are in the hands of God, but the things you do in Life, well that would be your own choice. So it’s my choice to grieve my grandparents or not, and I refuse to keep doing it.

Bleach Characters

So I usually don’t take a lot of online quizzes and stuff but when I saw this, I had to do it. I was totally ready to get like Unohana-taichou or Soifon or something because we have a lot in common. But I’m Rukia! That’s just hilarious! But I have a cool sword, so whatever!:P

Click here if you want to take it!

 

Then I saw this and took it… just cause it looked like fun. I know I have the biggest non-human obsession with Ukitake, but he literally is what I want you know- older, “he’s prettier than me…” look with lots of wisdom and character. And I love that I get to take care of him when he’s sick. Anyways, knowing that I’m a fool for Ukitake. I tried to take it as unbiased as possible… and ended up with…

 

Ukitake Jyuushiro!!!!

You are majorly into May-December relationships -- this man is way too old for you, and his head of white hair and his persistent coughing doesn't help. Still, it's hard not to love him -- he showers you with expensive gifts whenever he feels like it and loves to eat at all the best places. He inspires devotion in you and always knows the right thing to say when you're down. He's a man with an unwavering sense of justice tempered with mercy, a boyfriend who'd forgive every little transgression within reason. Just remember that sometimes you'd have to baby him when he's ill. Take care of him yourself or else his insane assistants will try to usurp your position in his heart.

Click here if you want to take this one!

I Heart Lesson of the Day

Location: Locked up in my room.

Music: Simple Plan- Shut Up

Mood: “I don’t give a chocolate fudge”

So sometimes it takes a long time to realize something very simple. People suck. Some people, like Mahtab, suck in a funny way- we love them. Other people suck in the “Kill me now, I’m going to kill them cold heartedly” way. Then there’s the “Whatever people” and the “Awesome” people. So they don’t really suck. But 1/4 people- they do suck in an awful way. Anyways, instead of killing people, you have two choices, tell them to eff off. Or ignore them. Now imagine if Obama sucked. (I’m not saying he does, I’m in Canada, American politics do not interest me, unless counting sheep has failed in putting me sleep). However, I imagine that telling Obama off is not a smart choice. I mean come on, he’s got, most of a country on his side. Or so I believe… I wouldn’t really know, considering that American politics, bore me. Then again, Canadian politics bore me. Except for the green party. I think they’re cool. Anyways, back to telling Obama to eff off. Not a good idea. Besides, how are you going to get an audience, I can totally imagine this: “Why do you want to see Mr. President?” “I’m gonna tell him off” “Ah. Security”

So yeah, not a good idea. Ignoring Obama is pretty easy. Well actually no, considering that I walk into the school hallways, and I’ll see at least one Obama T-shirt. I think Merin T-shirts would be so much cooler but hey, its a matter of opinion. Just that my opinion is better than yours. Yes I joke, I do not need to get caught up in an online flaming war. That’s not nice. Even if my opinion is the right one. I just think I would photograph better than Obama, that’s all. And my sister’s cute.

Point learned today is something that I would put in my list of “Things I do for ‘I Heart’ ”

I’ve finally learned that ignoring a person works pretty well. It kinda gets them riled up but hey, whatever. If it makes it harder for you to ignore. Blast the iPod. Power metal sounds awesome in your head when you’re trying to ignore someone. So does Simple Plan, everyone knows “I’m just a kid and life is a nightmare". Get an emo haircut. Maybe I should. No I wanna grow it back to long. But it can be emo long…  I think the whole reason I want the emo hair is because the word “emo” is just cool.

Anyways, I’m officially done ranting about I Heart and Obama.

Onto Shane Dawson. I’m not trying to promote this dude or something… yea I get $500 for promoting Shane Dawson. Uh, no. He’s the funniest guy on YouTube. Seriously. I though Fred was funny, he got annoying after a while. Shane’s just hilarious though. Though he named his dog Miley. Why? Well, Miley is a female dog. And so is Miley Cyrus, according to him and the 2000 comments that told him to name his dog Miley. I thought it was cute. Check him out here. 

Well this was fun. Anyways, I’m going to go watch Bleach 228. Here’s the link if you want to read it. I waited to watch it for a really long time last night, but the sub wasn’t out till…what’s 12 hours ago? Midnight. Damn I fell asleep so early. I could’ve watched this last night! Well whatever it’s probably a filler. Oh yea, I see Yoruichi shopping. Anyways, I’ll go and watch that now- here’s the link:

 

And I will talk to you all later! Toodles.

 

Update: Just finished watching it, and of course Bleach needs a Beach Day. My favourite part has to be the Funeral thing they did with Ukitake, poor man. I love him he’s so funny!

Randomness from Sunday to Wednesday

Location: Summer School at HB

Music: United Live- Hillsong United- The Stand

Mood: Sleepy

I just spend my weekend working. Friday: 3-10:30, Saturday all day and Sunday 4-8… I’m so tired that the only thing getting me out of this stupor would be… well Bleach of course! If I have to keep waiting for Friday, I am going to go insane! Going to go sleep now.

Okay my exam is in like 3 hours, let’s pray I do well…

I feel like this is my twitter…

We’re not on your side… we’re on Ichigo’s

Location: Home

Music: iPod is being charged…

Mood: Tired

WHHHATT WAS THATT!!!:D

The Vizards just pulled off the best entry they could’ve EVER done! It’s amazing! I’m shocked, appalled and frustrated at having to wait one more week till the next chapter arrives! Go Tite Kubo! You rock….

I have not much to say about this but that it was great cliffhanger, I love it- I loved it even more when Hirako is asked by old Yama- “Am I right to assume you’re on my side?” And Hirako replies, “Of course not”

I’m thinking WHAT THE HELL, then he goes, We’re not your allies, we’re Aizen’s enemies. We’re on Ichigo’s side.” I was not expecting that!

Well that’s my rant for the day, I have to go read Naruto now- so toodles.

Waiting for teacher to take attendance…

Location: Physics Summer School

Music: Saviour King- Hillsong- In Your Freedom

Mood: Tired as hell

So I just got my American Visa, and lost a day of summer school but whatever its Electricity and all that. I can’t wait for Modern Physics… I need a bigger challenge. This is really starting to bore me to death. I can’t help it- I love the physics but this physics is the stuff that I get in general, so it bores me… it’s going to be like taking advanced functions when I know how to find the derivative.

Anyways… I’m sick of work- I’m thinking of quitting… but then I like having the money:P But then I really really need a break. Anyways I was talking to my buddy from England Mark who is so funny. We ended up discussing what sort of a car I should get… he started talking Cars to me and in the end, he was like “don’t worry about it…” it was funny. And I still don’t know what to get. Between the VW Fox or the Golf but I’ve always been a lover of the BMW M-series… like I’m getting that one. Tough luck.

I was finally getting around to watching Bleach again, and had to sit through a bunch of fillers. I was going to commit suicide but then I remembered that the Chapter was getting released today… and Hirako was back so I put the poison away. I know, I’m morbidly funny.

Anyways, my Hillsong high isn’t really wearing down anytime soon, but I moved from Across The Earth, to Saviour King and like other CD’s… though I’m starting to listen to a lot more of non-Christian, like The Fray, OneRepublic (This started after I watched Castle and heard Stop and Stare), and lots and lots and lots and lots of Kate Voegele. 99 Times vaguely reminds me of something… but I don’t actually know what… someone let me know if you think you know what I’m talking about. Thanks in advance.

Update: It’s 10:45am now and I’ve just spent 10 minutes playing Mahjong Titans, and the other 1/2 hour sleeping.

Wait For Me

This song totally rocks my world and its what I do- I wait for my future husband- and pray for him. Where ever he is.

Bleach 364

Location: Home

Music: One Crowded Hour- Augie March

Mood: Wanting to simply write… very strange.

Beware all Bleach watchers- SPOILERS BELOW!

The last few weeks have been amazing for me, in terms of Bleach simply because of the fact that I live for Ukitake and Kyouraku. Considering that Kyouraku’s bankai is banned, you wonder how strong they actually are. Now I would’ve written about their imminent awesomeness earlier on… but I was too star struck to care. Until he almost cut Ukitake! Poor Jyuushiro-chan actually got hurt. I was on the verge of murderous intent taking over any little sanity my mind held onto and just destroying my pretty pretty laptop (Thank God I didn’t… it’s an HP Touchsmart tx2 that cost me my arm and half a leg (read: 6 months worth of a No Frills Cashier’s Salary). Anyways, then the big shocker hit (no really, I wouldn’t be writing about Bleach unless he actually died, which he obviously didn’t because GOD HELP TITE KUBO IF HE KILLS MY JYUUSHIRO-CHAN! (I may as well be channelling Yachiru).

But then thank The Lord for Hirako Shinji and the other Vaizards who will save the day! I was like wow! They looked awesome. Amazing. Period. But that has to be the first cliff hanger… ever. I was very frustrated by it actually- but all in all, a good chapter.

I-Heart Revolution

Location: Desk at home

Music: Generation- Simple Plan

Mood: Inspired

www.i-heart.org is the new home for the “I Heart” Revolution. I’ve written a huge thing about it, on the left box, but if you want a the spark notes version- its basically a group of people, who help other people and spread the love of God in practical ways. This isn’t us walking around giving out free Bibles. This is us actually taking care of our fellow citizens of Earth and showing love. Anyways, right now- they’re asking us to send photos to them, explaining what it is that we do- and It’s totally awesome, so when someone gets a chance- do this! The I-Heart Revolution is about the people, and this is the future. So me and the rest of us ask you- what’re you going to do about it?

5 Hours of Physics Every Day!

Location: Start of Physics 12 at HB

Music: Annoying cricket sound in the background while teacher takes attendance.

Mood: Sleepy

So between Physics and Chemistry, I always like Chemistry better because it was easier. But to my quirky and odd mind, Physics made sense. Yes, the thing that usually doesn’t make sense to people, made sense to me. I always had to hardest time with my math in Physics, not the concepts of Physics themselves. This makes me realize why I liked Quantum chemistry the best. What? An electron is a particle and a wave? Yea. I get that. What? The world may be made up of tiny vibrating strings that make up everything? Yea. I totally get that. The strangeness of the science meant that I understood everything, but the troublesome math involved. Don’t get me wrong, I love math. I adore it, but that doesn’t mean that it made sense to me. I have a hard time doing things like driving because its so systematic. I takes me time to get the rules or whatever, and I guess because its so logical, I have a hard time with it. I guess you need a logical brain to get math- the purest form of logic (as Mr. K once put it back when I was in grade 11). I don’t have a logical brain. It’s easy for me to follow strange concepts and ideas because hey, illogical just met illogical. I love math, but I love and get Physics.

Yea so I wrote all of this just to say that I love doing 5 hours of Physics in one day.

t00dles.

Cleaning Up Toronto

Location: 5 minutes before bell ringing at HBSS, Physics Summer School

Music: All of The Above- Hillsong- Solution

Mood: Meh

You may know that the City of Toronto’s city workers have striked due to many important reasons; which I agree with completely.  And if you want an explanation, ask Mrs. Bevan- she’s awesome. (Yea, here I go with awesome again). On the other hand, it’s great for city workers- awful for city. Makes us think about how hard they really work. When I stepped into Downtown Toronto, all I saw was garbage, and more garbage.

City of Toronto/City of Garbage.

So Mr. Krstovic, my awesomely (I need a new word to obsess on) awesome (I know) Chemistry teacher and I tried to put together a clean up of Toronto. We’re not trying to offend the workers or anything, just kind of clean up because of how disgusting it was. Anyways, not a lot of people actually want to clean up the city- which makes sense, I mean yea- who wants to spend Canada Day cleaning up TO ? I got my dear twin Sloane to help us plan… but we basically ended up having me, Dale and Mr. Krstovic- and Mrs. Bevan joining us later on, and all we did was simply pick up garbage around the city, by Dundas Square, City Hall and Eaton Centre. In three hours and change (that’s sound oddly right), we managed to collect 11 big black garbage bags FULL OF LITTER!! What really annoyed me was people handing out random things in the middle of the city, and everyone simply throwing it on the ground. They weren’t helpful at all. Well, they have to do their job right?

All in all, it was cool- China Town was just disgusting though, with the garbage everywhere. Nevertheless, I though it was a nice place, considering I’ve never been there before. I had a lot of fun, and I could see the results instantaneously! If 3 people in 3 hours could pick up 11 bags! Imagine 10 groups of 3! That would be like 110 bags!

Now I’m thinking of a bigger clean up… let’s go people! We have work to do!!!